The apostle Paul is a troublesome case for the Jewish leaders under Roman rule. He’s a Roman citizen. He’s a former member of the Jewish ultra-righteous group called the Pharisees — he was a kind of militant punisher of people “distracted” by the heretic, Jesus. But, after an inexplicable encounter with the risen Jesus, he completely rearranges his life. Jesus gives him this commission (which Paul recalls for a king when on trial):

“I’m sending you off to open the eyes of the outsiders so they can see the difference between dark and light, and choose light, see the difference between Satan and God, and choose God. I’m sending you off to present my offer of sins forgiven, and a place in the family, inviting them into the company of those who begin real living by believing in me.” — ACTS 26:17-18 [MSG]

Jesus sends Paul out not merely to explain the truths about Himself. But, instead He sends Paul out to “open the eyes of outsiders.” Clearly, a lot of the language here is more visceral than simply understanding a truth about God. How will people understand Jesus’ offer of “sins forgiven” if Paul is unable to live a life rich in grace and forgiveness? How will people fully embrace the notion of “a place in the family” if Paul refuses to live with genuine familial affection toward people unwelcome everywhere else? How will outsiders gain any picture of “real living” if Paul can’t seem to model it, frequently short-changing the rich, full life of walking with Jesus for a cheap counterfeit version?

I can’t help but read my own life into the text here. I wonder about the degree to which my own life really embodies this commission — Jesus’ offer of  “eyes opened… sins forgiven… a place in the family… real living.” I’m more apt than I like to admit to ignore people who deserve care and a place at the table. I’m quick to jettison life with Jesus if it can’t keep up with my need for speed and comfort. I do understand that life with Jesus is the life God intends for us. I’m finding that it is a much greater task to live as if I actually believe it to be true.

See you Sunday,

Jeff

P.S.: I’m looking forward to continuing our relationship conversation this weekend in the BEAUTIFUL MESS series. As a reminder, this weekend we’ll pick up where we left off, talking about sexuality. Please plan accordingly if you have young kids.